So it's been two days since my breakdown of sorts for not being good enough for work, and I can tell you all I feel much better now. Last night and this night I had a shift as well, and I did significantly better on those nights (I also had volunteer work but that's beside the point); I had a better understanding of what to do, and it helped a lot that I was paired up with someone which made sorting out stuff in the aisles much faster and apparently Thursday nights are just shitty nights in general because for reasons I forgot (I think something to do with the paycheck) not many people would come and there'd be a lot more work for everyone who did come.
So now that I've done the three nights in a row, not having another shift till Wednesday, feeling a lot more confident in myself and going to a Chinese New Year festival thingy in the city with my mom tomorrow, I feel great. I kinda feel like this:
But seeing as how I've been working 3 nights in a row and that it's half past 1 in the morning at the time of this journal, I feel more like this right now:
Either way, really big thanks to everyone who left kind comments on my last journal, it really does mean a lot to me that people I've never even met in person would care enough to not want me to be upset.